rememberance

memories can fade,
i tell myself
each day.
memories can disappear.

why can't i remember
what happened?
why can't i remember
that fear?
is my brain that
powerful?
could it have
blocked out the pain?

protected by
the pale peach sheets
each night,
i pray to feel,
i pray to remember.

but what happens
when i do remember?
when i do remember
the pain?
when i do begin
to feel?